Reflect

15:06 A little difficult Writing in English is still a little difficult for me, and it is related to my speaking capacity. My brain is still a Chinese brain. Before speaking, it needs to be translated into Chinese first. Therefore, what I should to do is insisting practice my writing and speaking skill by writing diaries and speaking everything. Writing diary In the morning, Tellus’s staff followed the appointment and called me to install the WiFi router. I came out of the apartment to pick him up. ...

订了四点五十的闹钟早早起床，一边洗漱一边和小欢欢录了视频。 这一路来非常感动，脑海里突然浮现出了张学友唱的一路上有你。想着放给小欢欢听，发现学友哥哪里能表达出我的情绪嘛，我又自己唱了一遍，小欢欢的眼泪又悄悄落下来了。 ...

早上醒的很早，感觉总是没睡够。生活作息比较混乱，继续看完了昨晚没看完的 Anki 文档。然后学习了一会儿英语，开始搜寻准备出国需要准备的物品。 一直以来学英语总是断断续续的，每天都只是一小点。但最近突然发现自己面对较长的文档也能静下来较为流畅的看懂了。 ...

09:52 Feeling Anxious Again In the past, I tended to prepare and arrange daily study plans because I couldn’t go abroad due to financial constraints. But if the CSC scholarship is approved and I can go, things like English proficiency will become extremely important. Some research tools can be temporarily set aside, but I must set aside time every day to study English. 15:08 Check the Vendor’s Overall Appearance Before Buying A few days ago, I bought some corn and immediately noticed it wasn’t great, but I had already picked two, so I reluctantly bought them. I also noticed the vendor was selling loquats and bayberries, neither of which looked fresh. ...

08:32 Got up after playing on my phone for a long time Woke up in the morning, took a shower, and tossed my dirty clothes into the washing machine. Sniffed the rice I cooked on Friday night—no weird smell yet—so I stir-fried it with some potatoes and eggs. 09:35 Checked CSC and talent recruitment programs Time flies—it’s almost mid-May already. Just opened the CSC website, and as expected, no results yet. Then I checked the talent expo website for updates on the talent recruitment progress—same deal, not even an interview notice. ...

Recently, I haven’t been in a good state, and I couldn’t even pinpoint what was wrong, let alone identify the specific issues. All I knew was that, on the surface, I seemed to be studying, eating well, and sleeping properly every day. Yet, nothing was truly done well, and each day passed by in a daze, slipping away far too quickly. It wasn’t until today, when I watched Jay Chou’s summary on learning, that I reflected on myself and finally understood where the problem lay. ...