Diary

20:08 The English Incident How ironic! Today, while browsing Bilibili, I discovered that He Kaiwen and Tian Jing, once familiar English tutors, are now involved in deceptive practices. Learning should primarily rely on serious textual materials, and only when things get too abstract should one turn to corresponding video explanations. This way, one can avoid being misled and make gradual progress. 22:38 Completed the 2023 Administrative Aptitude Test Scored 73.63, my highest so far, but still went over the time limit by more than ten minutes. Facing numerous difficulties, feeling a bit overwhelmed. ...

I got up and boiled two ears of corn for breakfast. They weren’t very sweet, probably the price to pay for being cheap. In the morning, I did a set of essay questions for the civil service exam and only scored 57. The questions were quite challenging. After checking the answers, I felt anxious, worrying about this and that. With a troubled heart, I took a nap. After waking up, I did a 10-minute meditation, which made me feel much better. It was quite effective. By the time I got up to review the morning’s answers, it was already past 3 PM. Feeling a bit stifled in the rental room, I packed my backpack with two sets of essay papers and headed to the library. I almost finished both sets, though I haven’t checked the answers for the second one yet. ...

11:34 The Printer Has Arrived Getting ready to go downstairs and pick it up. 16:43 Finished a Rough Set of Essay Questions Some of the questions were still quite challenging. If I don’t practice beforehand, I’ll definitely be at a loss during the exam. The printer is set up now, but it feels a bit cheap. Maybe it’s because of the price point. The photo prints aren’t very clear, and the color accuracy isn’t great either. Oh well, I can use it to print various types of paper, calendars, and such in the future, which is still quite nice. ...

Today marks my last day working at the Transportation Bureau, concluding a three-month internship. This morning, I treated my colleagues on this floor to a cup of milk tea as a gesture of gratitude. Coincidentally, it’s also Women’s Day, so I could use that as a fitting occasion. Sister Nan has been the most helpful to me and has taught me the most. Yesterday, I bought her a small potted plant. She seemed quite reluctant to see me go, and so was I. ...

As the weather turns cold, one always feels like burrowing under the covers. The water city truly lives up to its name with an abundance of water, and now the sound of a gentle drizzle is tapping against the window again. This morning, I spent the entire time working on the annual salary report. When I delivered it in the morning, I was met with a barrage of criticism, and when asked about some unit issues, I was at a loss for words. It seems I’ll have to let Sister Nan handle it herself and make a trip. ...

Since Sister Nan left, trivial matters have piled up. Although it’s possible that after this week, things might not be as busy, I’ve already informed Sister Nan and the section chief that I won’t be continuing after this week. I’m thinking of setting aside ample time to prepare for my own affairs, as I’m quite lacking in many aspects. Regarding the CSC application, my understanding of the policies is insufficient, and my preparation of materials is not thorough enough. As for exams, I haven’t done enough practice questions and haven’t simulated the exams under timed conditions. ...

Finally, I’ve sent out the revised version of the study plan. Sometimes I realize that I might not be cut out for academia; I can’t seem to settle my mind, and a lot of things are just done to get by. Today, I told Sister Nan that I won’t continue after this week. I want to devote all my efforts to preparing for applications and the exam system. I won’t leave any room for excuses for failure. ...